Life with 3 kids!

I once remember this person saying if I could just see that second line I would stop worrying. Ha! I hope she got the chance to realize how wrong she was.

That person obviously didn't understand that second line just meant a whole new set of worries to come. I promised myself that this pregnancy I was going to sit back and enjoy it, yet all I've done is worry. I should have known better than to promise myself anything like that. You'd think with each pregnancy I would become a little less neurotic and a little more confident, well I haven't.

I have been feeling my baby moving for 4 weeks now, well actually for 3 weeks then last week the movements stopped. A lot happened in the last week, with my grandfather then having my 2nd root canal in the same tooth that had a root canal in it a year ago (long story short, went to have the tooth crowned and they couldn't do it because the tooth was in pain still. My dentist said that shouldn't be so he had me have it looked at again by the endodontist who said I needed a re-treatment which is a fancy way of saying that I needed another root canal because that's exactly what it felt like! Good news is now all the work is done, April 10th my tooth will be crowned and hopefully will not have to deal with dental drama for a long long time!) So anyway, kept thinking that tomorrow I'll feel the baby, everything is fine. But no movement was felt. I said this to myself for several days before finally calling my wonderful doctor to see if I could come in for a heartbeat check.

The nurse I spoke with said exactly what I thought she was going to say, that it was too early to be feeling movement at all and not too worry, but she wanted to check with Dr T first. I hate when people tell me what I'm feeling is gas, I've been pregnant 3 times now, I think I can distinguish the difference between gas and baby, actually I know I can! I know what I've felt in the past was baby, and I know I felt it early but I always felt my babies early. Carter was the latest at 14 weeks, Nolan at 12 weeks, this baby at 11 weeks. First started the butterfly flutters, then what can only be described like a little bowling ball rolling from side to side, then the somersaults and flips. No real jabs or kicks yet, that I know its too early for!

So miss know-it-all nurse calls me back and said Dr T said to come in right away. She didn't say it in an OMG get your ass here now kind of way but it was still a bit alarming to hear her tell me to come in now. I called hubby up, he was oblivious to all of this but when I told him he did say "So that's why you haven't been mentioning the baby moving all week." Duh! I told him not to leave work but to just stay by the phone and wait for me to call. I got to Dr T's office at 3:30, they were very behind so we had to wait forever. Finally around 5 I was taken back. I was fully prepared for Dr T to be mad or act like I was wasting his time. I felt like I was being a bit neurotic! After all I had yet another nurse there tell me once again that I shouldn't be feeling movement yet! Grrrr! When Dr T came in the room he was very compassionate, he also said it is still early but knowing that this is my 3rd pregnancy he agreed that I was feeling movement and that only I know my body so when he heard it was me he wanted to see me and give me some reassurance. And he did, he found the heartbeat within seconds! Carter and Nolan were in the room with me, Carter immediately said, "Oh mom, you're not going to cry again are you?" LOL I did, but I hid it well. Dr T was so sweet about the whole thing, he asked if that made me feel better and of course it did. He was pleased by that, not wanting me to spend the night and rest of the weekend worrying. I guess he knows me better than I thought because I would have.

Since then I think I have felt the baby move, but nothing like I was feeling. I know the baby is fine, I need to stop worrying, I need to enjoy my pregnancy since it will most likely be my last, but if I know me I won't stop worrying about him... ever! The joys of motherhood!