Who am I?

Ok, so my blog is titled life with 3 kids, technically that's a little premature as I'm currently pregnant with my 3rd... but since he's the one that causes the most "issues" right now (he wears me out more than my 3 and 1 year old do, causes me more heartburn, more sleepless nights, more mornings spent with the potty for more than one reason... you get the idea!) I figured it was appropriate to add him in here as well!

I'm 99% sure I'm having another boy, just a good feeling. I'm so excited to have 3 boys... remain the queen of my castle, but at the same time I think of the stories my dad and his 2 brothers have told me about their childhood and then I think to myself... "What have I gotten myself into!" His name will be Trey Richard, not only do we love the name Trey, we also thought Trey would be fitting as he will be our 3rd boy and Trey means 3rd!

Carter is my 3 year old, will be 4 in May. He's in a kind of his own! Anyone who meets him can't help but love his spirit and personality. He's loving to everyone, but in an instant can turn into a crazy little monster. He's very shy at first, but as soon as he opens up he wants to be the center of attention. He's wild, energetic, a little aggressive at times, but has the biggest heart ever. He's an amazing big brother, he watches out for his lil bro and just adores him. I can't believe my "baby" is starting school in August! Carter is learning something new everyday and its insane how smart he is. He's got the most creative mind and can come up with the wildest stories, they don't always make sense but they're a riot to listen too!

Nolan is my 1 year old, will be 2 in May, and my little snuggle bug! He is the sweetest child ever... he loves to give hugs and kisses and for those he knows he'll walk right up to them and just melt them with the warmest hugs. He's shy at times, very laid back, but very curious and loves to get into everything he's not supposed too! He's a climber... he can manage to climb anything you can imagine. He's extremely smart, if he sees something he wants he will stop at nothing to get it, its amazing to sit back and watch him accomplish whatever he's thinking about, to see the way his little mind works. He's still not talking yet, his doctor was concerned enough to have his hearing checked, which he passed with flying colors, he's been evaluated by a speech therapist and both she and his doctor do not believe he's autistic, which was another concern so hearing that was a huge relief. According to his ST he's on target for everything but speech and we're working on fixing that! I have a hunch that he will soon be talking in full sentences and amaze us all. He's like that, he likes to make me wait, teases me with anticipation, then boom... in one day he's got it mastered! He did that with every other milestone so why should this one be any different?

Now as for Mark and I... We are a force to be reckoned with! We've been together for 7 years, married for 2, and have been through more than most couples could imagine. During all the bad times there was no doubt that despite everything, we had an amazing amount of love for each other. We have a bond that is truly unique. We share everything (accept for my girl scout cookies which I told him if he touched he would die!) seriously, we have no secrets. There's nothing to hide and I feel like that makes us stronger. We've seen each other at their worst and managed to help each other through those times. Sure we have our arguments and there are days when I can't stand being under the same roof as him, but never a day goes by that I question my love or my marriage. He's the one and always has been! Mark is a very respectful person, he couldn't harm a fly if he tried! He's soft, gentle, sweet, he tries to be romantic however usually he just makes an ass out of himself... but seeing him try is more than I could ask for! He's a total goof ball, he loves to make me and the boys laugh and will stop at nothing to accomplish that. What I love most about him is that he's an amazing father and will do anything for his family.

So that's basically who I am, a mother and wife. I'm pretty much an all or nothing kind of person. I refuse to defend myself to anyone who doesn't have the balls to ask me personally what is up. I don't sugarcoat anything. I can be irrational at times but in my defense I am full blooded Italian.. :) I often think out loud, I have no regrets in life, I don't think I am perfect but I would never try to be either. I know when I make mistakes, I don't have a problem apologizing when I know I'm wrong, I'm a happy person and can't stand those who like to bring others down. Of course there is so much more to me, but not many people know that person... if you "really" know me then you are special to me.